I am still baffled how a person would want to complicate an already complicated situation. And the saddest part is that I get reeled in most of the time to be left the casualty of such behavior and thinking.
Clearly, these are bad news. And yet, I get into it. Not particularly enjoying it, but it may have been an interesting opportunity to experience life. Sometimes I get to thinking that maybe I am more afraid of regrets than of lost chances. I have missed opportunities in the past. Maybe I am making up for them in one way or another.
I have been trying to keep away from them. Should I try harder? I knew it would hurt, but that doesn't mean I should stop trying to do the right thing.
If the situation was different, would they have chosen to be with me instead? See, there's no point in asking, right? Because the situation is not going to change anytime soon. This is what it is. And I am where I am and what I am to them.
If the tables were turned, I really wouldn't be able to handle it too.
This is one hell of a rut that I want to get out of...soon,immediately, pronto!